HAPPY CSP!

oh  you, you turn my whole life so blue, drowning me so deep, i just can't reach my self again ohh you..

aduh apaan sih jam 1.30 malam, ngigo nih galau jam segini masih buka internet, ngapain coba gak guna, tapi gapapalah nge-rilex in badan dahulu haha 

aduuh udah internetnya lama lagi! dalam ketrpurukan internet jadi inget sama hotspot sekolah yang kadang cepet secepat kilat kadang lama banget terus sering disconect hmm yaudah gapenting uga untuk tau sih haha ...ngapain yaampun galau ini jam segini..aaaa bingung!

apa lebih baik ngerjain CSP? CSP itu buku paket MTK yang dipake di sekolah, dan kita sebagai murid murid yang baik dan patuh, harus mengerjakan soal soal disana supaya jadi pinter karena sering latian... bener sih tapi...kalo sekarang apa lebih baik tidur? tapi kayaknya udah insomnia nih .. dan sepertinya CSP pilihan tepat-,-

HAPPY CSP tonight!

The voice

A: kau bilang kau sangat mencintai aku?

B: ya benar aku sangat mencintai dan menyayangimu,teramat sangat

A: kau bohong! kau seorang pembohong besar!

B: tidak aku jujur, aku jujur

A: kau tahu, kalau kau mencintai aku, kau tidak akan membiarkan satu waktu salat pun terlewati, kau tak akan melalaikan tiap salatmu,  kau senantiasa ingin bertemu aku dengan memperbanyak salatmu dengan cara menunaikan salat yang sunah

kalau kau mencintai aku, kau akan selalu mengawali tiap waktu dhuhamu, dan menjaga salat malammu.

Kalau kau mencintai aku, kau akan selalu patuh pada orang tuamu, tiap kau patuh pada perintahnya, kau sama patuhnya juga terhadapku, bila kau membuatnya senang, maka aku senang, karena ridho diriku terletak pada ridho orang tuamu.

kalau kau mencintai aku, kau tidak akan terus menerus mendengarkan musik favoritmu,hingga kau hafal tiap bait dalam liriknya, kau seharusnya mengamalkan Al quran yang jelas jelas berisi pengetahuan dan kebenaran yang nyata.

Apa kamu pikir musik musikmu itu bisa menolongmu? TIDAK! tapi alquran bisa menolongmu! Pernah kah kau berpikir apakah orang yang melantunkan lagu yang kau pujapuja itu peduli terhadapmu, pedulikah ia? TIDAK, tapi aku yang menurunkan Al quran senantiasa memberi perhatian dan peduli terhadapmu!

Kalau kau mencintai aku, kau akan terus menjaga hafalanmu! bukan malah mengahafal lirik lagu, taukah dirimu setiap ayat, setiap huruf yang kau baca akan membuatmu mendapat kebaikan, sedangkan musik yang kau puja itu? Taukah kau bila setiap kau baca kitab ku kau akan menjadi tenang, apakah kau akan mendapatkan ketenangan yang hakiki bila kau terus mendengarkan musik yang kau puja itu?

Kalau kau mencintai aku, sebagai muslimah kau tidak akan rela bila sedetikpun auratmu terbuka, kau akan selalu menjaga jilbabmu. Jilbab untuk hati, perilaku, dan wibawamu.

sudahkah kau mengamalkan semua itu bila kau bilang cinta padaku?

B: (hanya menangis tersedu)

A: sudahkah sayang? bila belum aku akan setia menunggu:)

revolution in 2011

Keep FIGHTING

      on 2011 (1432 H)

Hamasah for the greatness and Peace in New year

New Year New Spirit !!

Niat yang lurus! Aku bisa, InsyaAllah bisa!

With Allah i can never be lonely:))    

Secondhand serenade favourite lyrics

Broken 

In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You're invincible
Yeah, It's true
It's in your eyes
Where I find peace

Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream

out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away.

So here we are now
In a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other

Together we'll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?

And time
Is all I ask for
Time
I just need one more day
And time
You've been crying too long
Time
And your tears wrote this song
Stay

In the moonlight
Your face it glows

Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream

out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away.

Awake 

With every appearance by you
Blinding my eyes, I can hardly

remember
The last time I felt like I do
You?re an angel disguised

And you?re lying real still
But your heartbeat is fast just

like mine
And the movie?s long over
That?s three that have passed,

one more?s fine

Will you stay awake for me?
I don?t wanna miss anything
I don?t wanna miss anything

I will share the air I breathe
I?ll give you my heart on a string
I just don?t wanna miss anything

I?m trying real hard not to shake
I?m biting my tongue but I?m

feeling alive
And with every breath that I take

I feel like I?ve won
You?re my key to survival

And if it?s a hero you want

I can save you, just stay here
Your whispers are priceless
Your presence is too so please

stay here

Will you stay awake for me?
I don?t wanna miss anything
I don?t wanna miss anything

I will share the air I breathe
I?ll give you my heart on a string
I just don?t wanna miss anything

Say my name, I just want to

hear you
Say my name, so I know it's true
You?re changing me, you?re

changing me
You showed me how to live, so

just say, so just say

That you?ll stay awake for me
I don?t wanna miss anything
I don?t wanna miss anything

I will share the air I breathe
I?ll give you my heart on a string
I just don?t wanna miss anything

Goodbye

It's a shame that it had to be this

way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm so blind or maybe

we're the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my

drive
'Cause everything we've been

through
It's everything about you

Seem to be a lie, a countless,

twisted lie
That made me learn to hate you
I hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way


All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way, hey

And every, everything isn't only

what it seems
So hope these words that you

never told me
It's time to say goodbye, it's

time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye,

goodbye, goodbye

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

The Last Song Ever

I wish my life was this song

'cause songs they never die
I could write for years and

years, never have to cry
I?d show you how I feel without

saying a word
I could wrap up both our hearts,

I know it sounds absurd

And I saw the tears on your

face, I shot you down
And I slammed the door but

couldn?t make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear,

don?t hate me now
And I can?t tell how this last

song ends

The way that I feel tonight, so

down, so down
I pray I can swim just so I won?t

drown
In the waves that crash over me
I?m gasping for air, take my

hand so I can breath
As I write this last song down


And I saw the tears on your

face, I shot you down
And I slammed the door but

couldn?t make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear,

don?t hate me now
And I can?t tell how this last

song ends

The broken glass, your

moistened skin
Was everything, was everything
And your broken voice was

quivering
You?re everything, you?re

everything

Scream at me, make it the best I

ever had
Laugh out loud, I know it sounds

absurd
Scream at me, make it the best I

ever had
You?re everything, you?re

everything

Heartbeat?s slowing, pains are

growing
Does she love you? That?s

worth knowing
You?re everything

Fall For You

The best thing 'bout tonight's

that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been

this way before?
I know you don't think that I am

trying
I know you're wearing thin down

to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another

day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is

impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never

fall apart
You always thought that I was

stronger
I may have failed, but I have

loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another

day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is

impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words

'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when

you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another

day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is

impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another

day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is

impossible to find
You're impossible to find


A Twist In My Story

Slow down, the world isn't

watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone

now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is

the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until

you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't

matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to

describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside

down
It turns around, say what's that

sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting

much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than

ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling

so alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't

matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in

my story
It's time I open up, and let your

love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in

my story
It's time I open up, and let your

love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in

someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what

you get

So you see, this world doesn't

matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
This world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
Slow down, the world isn't

watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone

now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is

the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until

you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't

matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to

describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside

down
It turns around, say what's that

sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting

much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than

ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling

so alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't

matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in

my story
It's time I open up, and let your

love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in

my story
It's time I open up, and let your

love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in

someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what

you get

So you see, this world doesn't

matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
This world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to

breathe
The same air as you till the day

that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

Why 

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Iis harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Iis harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

Your Call

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Maybe

Didn't you wanna hear
the sound of all the places we could go?
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know?
It's a cold, hard road when you wake up,
and I don't think that I have the strength
to let you go.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

There goes my ring,
it might as well have been shattered.
And I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered.
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long.
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

And someday, I promise I'll be gone.
And someday, I might even sing this song to you.
I might even sing this song to you.
To you, to you, to you...
And I was crying alone tonight,
and I was wasting all of my life
just thinking of you.
So just come back,
we'll make it better.
So just come back,
I'll make it better than it ever was.
I'll make it better than it ever was.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

(I want it all, don't leave right now.
I'll give you everything.)

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face makes me wish
that I was never brought into this place.
Maybe it's just me
Didn't you wanna hear
the sound of all the places we could go?
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know?
It's a cold, hard road when you wake up,
and I don't think that I have the strength
to let you go.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

There goes my ring,
it might as well have been shattered.
And I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered.
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long.
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

And someday, I promise I'll be gone.
And someday, I might even sing this song to you.
I might even sing this song to you.
To you, to you, to you...
And I was crying alone tonight,
and I was wasting all of my life
just thinking of you.
So just come back,
we'll make it better.
So just come back,
I'll make it better than it ever was.
I'll make it better than it ever was.

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

(I want it all, don't leave right now.
I'll give you everything.)

Maybe it's just me.
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm, hard face makes me wish
that I was never brought into this place.
Maybe it's just me

something called "rindu sahabat"

(baca artikel yang ini mesti dengerin lagunya ten2five yaa biar berasa haha)

::special teruntuk teman temanku di ROHIS, dan EXTENDED::

jam 9:39 buka my document - terus buka mypicture - terus buka folder SMANSA - terus disitu ada folder rohis, folder extended, folder film kelompok, sm folder extended trip to jogja. pastinya habis itu aku liatin satu satu foto foto itu haha, ga sengaja buka media player dan lagunya yang kesetel "Ten2five-you"..
maka jadilah .. seperti buka album kenangan gitu setiap foto jadi haru aaaa so sweet---mana backsoundnya lagu sendu yaitu accousticnya ten2five-YOU..

yaampun kangen! kangen banget! kangen extended di kelas, pas ke jogja** sekamar bareng echa aul hasna aaa kangen banget ya Allah-,-.. pas pwk, kangen pas buat film kelompok di rumah ijulia bareng echa sabila jalu aulia sama hasna---kangen rohis, kenangan pas lagi tafakur alam**, kenangan pas ldk, dan semua kegiatan barengbareng rohis..
ya Allah aku pengen banget ngerasain setiap hal itu bareng mereka lagi MAU BANGET! terutama untuk teman teman extended karena sekarang kita udah pada mencar mencar kelasnya, di ips sama di ipa...

Magic banget ya kekuatan foto itu mampu menyimpan keceriaan kesedihan keanehan yang terjadi pada saat lampau dalam sebuah gambar 2 dimensi yang menjadikannya sangat hidup,
kalo udah kita liatin fotonya nanti tiba tiba di sudut mata kita ada mutiara embun deh yang menetes haha

--aku punya puisi yang menggambarkan sebuah persahabatan ..
(jangan lupa sambil dengerin lagu YOU ya haha)

Sahabat ..

Kau adalah dorongan ketika aku hampir berhenti berjuang

Petunjuk jalan ketika aku tersesat

Sahabat ..

Kau membiaskan senyuman sabar ketika aku terluka

Memapahku ketika aku hampir tergelincir

dan mengalungkan doa untuk setiap hari hari yang kita lewati

Sahabat..

kau tahu dunia ini muram tanpa kehadiranmu..

dunia ini gelap tanpa sinar bersamamu..

kau selalu siap sedia di sampingku ketika aku berduka

Kau selalu berada di belakangku ketika aku butuh dirimu..

Sahabat..

taukah ? dirimu sangat berharga untukku

setiap kritikanmu adalah mentari dihatiku

setiap kata kata nasihatmu adalah bunga mekar yang selalu membuatku lebih baik

Sahabat..

Aku tak bisa mengungkapkan kata kata lebih dari ucapan terimakasih atas hal hal berharga yang kita telah lewati bersama

Aku ingin persahabatan ini tak akan retak sampai kita menutup mata

abadi untuk selamanya

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 Terimakasih kuucapkan kepada semua teman temanku:)) Terimakasih atas pengalaman yang sudah kita alami bersama, Terimakasih untuk selalu ada dimana saja dan kapan saja aku butuh..

Friends..

I'll be your shining star to guide you

I'll give the air that you breathe

I'll give the strength that you need

I'll be the light in your eyes when hope becomes hard to see

I'll be your shining star to guide you wherever you are :))

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semoga kita akan membentuk kenangan baru, bersama lagi di surgaNya nanti,amin :)

notes:
**: mengeluarkan air mata saat melihat fotonya

Orang orang yang berselimut

kalian tahu dunia ini bukan hanya milikmu
kalian tahu dunia ini adalah komunikasi bebas alam bersorai
kalian tahu dunia ini memiliki bermilyar orang orang yang haus perbaikan
mengapa masih menjadi orang dengan rahasia yang penuh tanya
mengapa masih diam tanpa suara
apakah selimutmu menutupmu dari pendengaran untuk mendengarkan orang
apakah selimutmu masih menutup mulutmu untuk berbagi
apakah selimutmu masih membutakanmu dengan kesombongan kedudukanmu
masihkah?
wahai orang yang berselimut
kekuasaanmu tinggi jabatanmu besar
tapi taukah kau itu lemah, selalu saja menyembunyikan sesuatu di balik selimutmu
tertutup semua telinga dan mulutmu hanya untuk kalangan seperti dirimu
taukah kalian, bahwa diluar sana kau itu menjadi dasar dalam luka hati banyak orang
sadarlah kalian wahai orang yang berselimut
aku takut bila kau terus bersembunyi dalam selimut
selimutmu itu berasal dari hati yang tidak mau menerima lagi segala kenyataan perubahan kalau kau itu mahluk sosial
dengarlah wahai orang orang yang berselimut, aku berdoa untuk kesembuhanmu!

myLIFE (SEMANGAT atau MATI!)

ketika ingatan itu begitu jelas memnuhi segala bujuk rayu penghantar kalbu dalam tiap detik hembusan nafas tak bisa terdesir untuk mengatakan tidak. Ingatan itu sekarang begitu terang memenuhi pikiranku. Ingatan ketika dirimu terputus untuk segala apa apa yang kau kerjakan.
Ingata ketika kau Mati!

Fikiran apa yang akan terbesit dalam pikiranmu ,ketika kau bisa mengira ngiran umur yang tinggal beberapa tahun, sedangkan kewajibanmu masih bertumpuk untuk kau kerjakan, dan tubuhmu sudah akan dipanggil untuk menghentikan aktivitas yang biasa kau jalani.Mati adalah sesuatu yang membahagiakan seharusnya, tidak hidup kembali di tempat fana penuh dusta yang menjadikan setiap detik berpotensi untuk melakukan dosa. Ya seharusnya kita bahagia, bisa hilang dari tugas yang berati. tapi hidup dengan kata pasrah adalah sesuatu yang hambar.

Aku merindukan berbagai tantangan berarti dengan rintangan bergulir yang mengombak ombakan hidupmu. Bila kau terus mengikuti ombak tanpa terbawa arus kau akan mengetahui dengan pasti setiap arti hidupmu dan menikmati makna hidup yang kau dapatkan. Setiap kelezatan hidup dengan manisnya pertemuan khidmat yang membuatku merasa semakin hidup di malam hari itu adalah sesuatu yang mesti diperjuangkan. Hidup itu lebih dari ucapan serius ketika kau mengatakan aku masih bernafas.

aku telah menemui jati diri kehidupanku, alurnya begitu kasar namun rasanya bahkan
selembut salju, sampai waktu itu datang untuk menjemputku.
Setiap ingat ingatan mendesir itu,ingatan ku akan kehidupan singkat yang aku usahakan aku mendapat nikmatnya di tiap hari alam sisa waktu yang aku punya adalah sebuah perjuangan utuh.

aku hanya akan bersungguh sungguh dalam diriku, selama kakiku masih bisa membantuku untuk berdiri, aku akan membuat mereka yang telah mengasuhku, meraka yang selalu ada  menemaniku, bangga melihat diriku. Aku setidaknya ingin membuat mereka senyum di hari hari terakhir setiap perjuangan yang aku dapatkan. Aku sedih untuk berpisah dengan tidak menghasilkan sesuatu pun yang bisa membuat mereka setidaknya sedikit tidak percuma atas apa yang mereka lakukan selama ini untukku.

Semangatku untuk terus mempejuangkan hari hari di sisa waktu ini membuatku berpikir sesuatu yang menjadi cita cita ku dan cita cita mereka untuk tercapai hingga akhir hidup.Setiap detik yang masih tersisa bagaikan berlian dalam tumpukan emas. Aku mau hidup ku berarti setidaknya untuk mereka yang selalu bersamaku.

tanpa mimpi, orang sepertiku akan mati! Aku harus terus berjuang dan optimis karena kita tak akan pernah bisa mendahului nasib

Sekarang tekadku BULAT, batasan antara diriku dan cita citaku adalah MATI. Semangatku bagai api yang tak akan berhenti berkobar.Dengarlah kalian yang selalu menjatuhkan semangatku, kalian tidak lain adalah kayu bakar dalam api semangatku hari ini!

Hidup ini terlalu berharga bila dibiarkan seperti air mengalir.....

Spirit for keep Writing

Heayey! Hm during i still can breathe from now i will share all the experience i've ever had, a happiness, a sadness,everything!  i will share all. i wanna this blog full, easy to read, and unforgetable ever .
Spirpt for keep writting arrounding me now! lets see how my hands keep this spirit ! i wanna writing writing writing writing!! Write or yo'll be forget it. Write make me alive again. i wanna make my live is written by history and making something which has been written is true! Keep spririt XO

SCRIBO ERGO SUM - i still exist because i write!

Akhirnya Ia Kembali Berdetik

Sudah seminggu lebih ia terbaring koma, hanya dengan bantuan alat bantu di luar ia bisa kembali berdetik. Itupun hanya untuk beberapa saat, kemudian ia kembali dalam keadaan stagnan-nya.
aku sangat sedih melihat kondisinya seperti ini, padahal umurnya bisa dibilang baru beberapa minggu.
Namun suatu saat di sore hari, secercah harapan itu ada, aku tahu Allah Maha Penyayang kepada hambanya, entah itu benda hidup atau benda mati. Akhirnya, hari senin tanggal 15 november, ia menunjukan tanda tanda kehidupan lagi, setelah lama mengalami tidur yang panjang, berkat sedikit sentuhan ketokan amarah . Akhirnya Ia kembali berdetik! aku sangat senang melihatnya sehat kembali...  aku sangaaaaat senang .. Terimakasih ya Allah jam tanganku bisa kembali menemani aktivitasku lagi .. Semoga Awet...